The past few days have left me feeling as I never have before. I don’t really know how to describe it, but it’s a strange and not necessarily good set of emotions. I’m not even sure what the emotions are that I’m feeling. I’ve found myself unable to sleep and not really wanting food even though I’m clearly hungry. I’m not trying to shun food or worried about weight or anything like that. So one can rest assured it’s certainly not a some sort of eating disorder. In fact, the only eating disorder I could ever be diagnosed with is the desire to eat way, way, way too much at times. Consequently, eating too little or nothing at all will never be a problem which only makes my current state seem that much weirder to me. Part of it is that my stomach has felt a little uneasy, but I really just assumed that was due to the fact that I hadn’t eaten way too much. So I tried eating some larger meals thinking it might solve the problem only to find it didn’t really help anything.
At this point, I’ve resigned myself to the fact that that queasiness I’m feeling in my stomach is partly due to my emotional state after the past couple of days, and likewise, I’m also attributing the restlessness to the same thing. So right now it looks like I’m just going to be riding these feelings out which surely won’t be fun. After all, my current feelings have led me into unchartered waters, and I really don’t know how to navigate back to calmer seas. I’ve also found that when it comes to one’s feelings and emotions there is no map or directional device to follow. It’s really just a matter of weathering the storm and learning from it which is never fun but always necessary.
So I must apologize for the post which is really not entertaining at all. In fact, I realize that it’s probably even a bit depressing and as a consolation I figured I’d end on a happier note. Since Google knows all and Google knows images, I’ve decided to leave you with a few images that Google Images recognizes as happy.
I don’t know if the last one necessarily evokes happy emotions, but I thought it was pretty darned funny. Oh well, I guess th-th-that’s all folks.
I am sorry.
where have you ben you forgot tofill us in on duks loosing and under world evolutionand all the outher stuff you dispoint me mister lever
When you say:
“I’ve resigned myself to the fact that that queasiness I’m feeling in my stomach is partly due to my emotional state after the past couple of days, and likewise, I’m also attributing the restlessness to the same thing.”
Are you reffering to watching Tristan & Isolde or buying a teddy bear?
michael: Haha, sadly neither of those or I guess not so sadly as that would make me look like a total panzy. Although, I guess I already look like a total panzy for going to see that movie and having a teddy bear.